The last few weeks, I went home and dialing it back wasn’t as easy as I thought. Somehow, even on vacation, I couldn’t seem to relax, I’m still being tough on my son, and always felt like I needed to be going to the next activity. And then I got hacked. And as anxious as I was that I may lose all my followers or the hacker may do something to my account, I was kind of relieved. I literally couldn’t be on instagram, so I couldn’t post anything on my stories and I couldn’t work on reels, or engagement, etc. 

 

It was almost nice being hacked. It was eye opening. I realized, I don’t know how to be bored. Now, being a mother of two, you don’t have a lot of time to be bored, but you’re always rushing to the next task or doing multiple things at once. And it took being hacked, this trip, and lots of talking to realize that the phone has been making me feel overwhelmed, unable to focus and lacking presence in what’s going on in my day to day. 

 

Now, I understand for some business owners out there, there are no breaks. Social media is how you get your source of income and kudos to you, because honestly it can get pretty exhausting always looking at your phone and make it very difficult to pull away from it when you don’t need to be on it. 

 

I’ve been blessed with the privilege of doing my business for myself and I am beyond grateful for that. But, it has come at a cost. 

 

It has cost my parenting, it has cost being more responsible and resourceful as an individual, and it has cost understanding my own value.

 

How? How could my phone be doing all of this to me? Because it hasn’t allowed me to just stop. And think. Or stop, and be present. Or stop, and be bored and let my mind wander. 

 

Please understand I am just speaking from my point of view. I’m sharing this because I am an advocate of taking care of yourself. I am an advocate for growth and getting better. And sometimes that means taking time and stepping back from something and really reflecting on what impact it’s made in your life. 

 

So, when it comes to FSK and you all, I am there for you. But, I also need to really train myself in controlling how engaged I can be without feeling like it’s going to take over. And like any new habit, it takes practice and repetition until it’s truly engrained. 

 

Here are some practices I am going to try implementing:

1. Not having my phone around during any meal time (breakfast and lunch mainly since dinner I normally don’t)
2. Not taking it to every room I go to
3. Focusing on posting 3-4 times a week, instead of everyday
4. Taking a break from posting on stories at least once a week
5. Not looking at my phone right before I sleep (this one will be hard)

I know this is not food or fitness related, but it’s health related since it has to do with  mental well-being. I hope this helps you in any way and share to others who may need the reminder to just slow down, and be present.